This year I'm going to sit for my SPM already.. But until now I still feel I'm just empty.. Teacher teaching I sleeping.. Teacher talking I gossip.. What teacher ask us to do I copy from my friend.. ARR!!! If I'm like this how am I going to sit for my SPM?!
I really have put a lot of effort on my study.. I also have try to concentrate while teacher teaching.. But I still get nothing!! I'm empty!! I don't want!! I don't want to fail my SPM!! My BM is weak.. But I've no idea to improve it.. Teacher told the class to do the homework she gave then slowly you can improve your BM.. Bur teacher.. I done it.. But I still don't know how to write a good essay~ Somemore.. My Biology, Chemistry, Physics all also I do NOT know how to do and what it's saying about!
I feel the darkness in front me.. I didn't have the courage to sit for my examination.. I study in the best class.. But I know I more suit to study in the weak class.. I feel stressful in this good class.. All of them get good result in their examination.. But me!! I get the worst, the worstest result in this class!! I feel ashame in this class.. Teacher! Why you don't let me to change my class last year?!! Do you know you make me feel myself are so useless?!!
I really hate to study.. But without my SPM certificate I just can do nothing.. But if i fail my BM, i get the SPM certificate also useless! What am I suppose to do?! I really don't know.. I lost my way.. I only feel the empty upon me..
Whatever.. Nevermind.. I will try.. Try my best.. To not let my SPM fail.. I will let it pass.. Hope I really can!
