As the time
passing by, feeling each day older than the day before...... lot of things
happening and happened, lot of thoughts running through...... Just a minute or
only a second of realization, I'm changing each day, whether good or bad......
You gotta accept something that you've no idea how to actually accept but only
to accept it like seriously. You're not sure whether are you mature or just
ignorant, for things that happen foolishly, you have no idea to prevent but to
let it happen right in front of your eyes. You know you should do something but
the situation just won't let you to do so. At that moment of time, you learned,
you learned how just keep it off from you and stand aside. You thought you're
strong enough to let go but that things will stay in your mind and bother you
unexpectedly. Whether or not, you have to choose to forgive and let go even if
you don't want to.
Most of the time I’m
actually thinking, if I could control the things happening around me, it would
be good but I know I don’t have any of that ability. What I could only do is,
change myself and accept the reality. I would like to say accept the truth but
apparently I’m confused if it’s the truth, so I would only say it’s only reality.
People around you are changing every day, included yourself as I said earlier.
Even sometime the person you’re closest to will do things that you don’t wish
to happen. What you can really do is only accept and forgive. Yes, accept and forgive. Otherwise you’re the one who bear the pain.
I wish every of my
friend wouldn't get hurt and always stay happy. Yet, something will just ruin
your wish like nobody. You can only watch it, accept it and forgive. Even if
you lend a hand to help, people will think that you’re harming them. Or they
will just ignore your help and continue their path which I cannot bear when I
know they’re facing real difficulties. That’s what people always say, reality. I
wish I never have to deal with all these. I wish my life could be very simple. I
wish everything goes well. I wish I could still make things out with people. I wish
I had never cares so much. I wish everything will be at place. I wish, that’s only
I wish. When things come I still gotta face it.
Sometimes, I wish
life can be a little bit simple for me to catch it and live it. Now, I really wish to take
a break and escape from the reality and get in touch with the nature and not to
think a thing. Just to relax my mind and get some breathe. However, I still
needed to face the reality and solve the problems.
Lord, please give
me wisdom and strength to go through the life’s difficulties.
