Lord, Show me Your way

Tell me what's right, what's wrong. Tell me which is true, which is fake. Teach me how to make a decision. Teach me how to sure that I'm in the right way. Sometimes I just feel so tired, lot of things that tiring me, made me feel so lost, but I know you're always there for me. Please show me your way in my life. I need it to be my guide line. Sometimes I'm feeling depressed, everything seems to be the matters that may blow up my mind. Sometimes I might feel not myself, just like a doll, have no spirit inside and do things aimlessly. Every of this just make me feel so tired and tiring me always. I may wish to cry hard just to vent it out, but it seems so hard to me. I can't cry in front of my staff, they may think I'm weak and useless; I can't cry in front of my family, they may worried and I can't give them a reason; i can't cry in front of my friends, even ya they also can't help in any. I may wish to cry when I'm alone. It's need to be release out from me, but I just found it so hard. I come to you in silence, but You know what's wrong with me. I may can't tell what happen with me, but You know everything. You know my weakness, You know me well. When I can't speak in tongue, when I keep in silent, I come before you, You know what I need, You know what I want to tell. When everything blowing me up, Lord, please bring me to you. I found peace when I come to you, You comforted me. I need You so much! I am just not myself when I am without You. You made the real me, You build the whole me. Every time I come before You, You just let me feel free, You just take off all my burden. All I need to do is just stay beside You, listen to Your words and live it out. Lord, thank You for always being there for me whenever I need or I don't. Lord, please tell me Your plan in my life and be with me always, I can't work it out by myself but with You. Lord please lead me, guide me, tell me what to do next. I will and I can do it by the strength You've given me. Thank You Lord for everything. Amen!

~~~BluRrrrRRrrrr~~~

我对你是还有感觉没有?

怎么有时候见到你.. 心中还是有种说不出的感觉~

我对你是还留有情感么?

没见着你的时候就啥东西也没有..

咋一见到你时所有的感觉又涌完上心头了? 听见你出事了就着急得不得了...

我对你到底有完没完啊?

明明就很努力的拼命把对你的感觉忘掉.. 把你戒掉...

怎么感觉差不多了却发现心里还是放不下你..??!

请问~你可以离一离开吗?

我不懂我该怎么面对你!!

我不懂我该怎么面对旁人的眼光!!

每每我和你有亲密的举动.. 我就发现有异样的眼光在注视着我们!

我接受不了那样的眼光!!

想和你保持距离, 却发现我怎么也办不到..!!

我喜欢与你亲近.. 喜欢在你身边...

喜欢你看我的眼神.. 喜欢你对我说话的语气..

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~~~~

很烦啊!!!!!!

不是已经决定要断掉了吗?

为什么还念念不忘?

都已经放话了不是吗?

为什么你还一直的霸占我的思绪?

为什么你还一直出现在我脑海中?

你对我也没感觉了, 不是吗?

为什么你还经常对我做出亲密的举动, 举止..

你不知道我会误会吗?

你不知我会因而动心吗?

算了~ 你什么都不知.. 你什么都不了~

我的心酸、难过... 我自己懂就好..

我不期望你会对我做什么..

只希望你开心就好...

02062011 22:08pm

为什么每次我回家都要让我看到这样的事发生？
为什么每次我回来你们都不能好好的？
为什么每次我回家一定会让我看到你们吵架的场面，再不然就是你们心情不好或者骂人的场面？
你们可知这让我很难受？
我宁可回到我那个家...
我宁可回到我那安静的房间...
我宁可自己一个人...
虽然很寂寞，但至少我能找到属于我自己的温暖...
不像这儿...
是！它是个家...完整的家...它也有温暖，也有安慰...
但...能不能不要吵架？能不能不要成天骂人？能不能有好的心情？
“家”是让人休息的地方，让人安慰的地方，让人有温暖的地方...
不是回到来还要受你们的气...
你们在外头受了气，回到家就把它给忘了吧...
而不是把气出在我们身上啊...
我们在外头也受了气...
回到来当然想休息...
但你们都不停的骂...不停的念...
做儿女的我们能受的了吗？
顶嘴固然是我们不对...
但不完全是我们的错啊...
算了...
“家”依然是“家”
“家”需要彼此的爱，彼此的包容，彼此的关怀...

但我还是宁愿一个人生活...
那感觉是那么的微妙...
要求不多...家人支持我就好了...
无论我做什么决定...
有你们支持我就够了...

一个人也许会孤单，寂寞...
但这就是我的生活...
我也能在我的生活中找到快乐...
哪怕只是一个人...

~~Clear~~

Hmmm~~ Sometimes.. It's just very easy to love someone.. But when you want to leave.. You'll found that's so hard...

I love someone so much before.. I really do.. When I know that we are not longer could be together.. I'm been hurt... Really hurt so so deep... I choose to leave... But it is too hard for me..

Somehow.. When I know that he is still loving me... I'm really really happy.. We just like back to before.. The way we talk are just same as before... I'm thinking that we still have chance.. Can be together just like before... But I totally did not expect that he will hurt me the second times... Actually he had hurt me three times... Hmm... He say... I love you.. But we really cannot be together.. I could not understand... He say we can't be together.. Why still want to tell me that he still love me.. I really can't understand... He say.. Hope I can found a nicer boyfriend.. Okay! Don't he know that I love him very very much?! Whatever...

My friend told me... Let it go.. Just let it go... Don't hold it tightly.. It's will hurt you more deeper..

Thinking what my friend had told me.. Thinking that why I'm so stupid.. Waiting in a love that have no result.. What my friend told me is true... Why don't I just let it go.. This guy had hurt me three times! Why don't I just let it go.. Then I could be free.. Hmm..

It's easy to love.. Also hard to let it go... But think clearly.. It's not really hard to let go too... Just see what's the way you take... I take a easier way for me.. I love you .. I really do... But it just not same as before.. =]

I'm clear with what I walking in now... =]

~~Love is good all the time~~

懂了

对于时间的流逝
感觉自己好像想开很多事情了
慢慢的懂事多了
前阵子
总是把自己困在感情当中
期待会改变什么
但
什么也没改变
期待会发生什么
但
什么也没发生
我还站着干什么呢？
提一提脚
甩甩鞋底
往前踏
就走了丫
常听人说：放手吧，忘了他吧
我会放手
但我不会忘
因这是我回忆里的一部分
我干啥把它忘掉呢？
N年后
我还能回头望望呢

别说
分手了，就不爱了
其实，我还爱你
只是，我会用另外一个方式爱你

两个人的爱情本就该是相爱的
没有一厢情愿或是单相恋
虽说爱情是不求回报的
不过一直对一个不懂你付出的人付出
受伤的总是自己
倒不如
放手
换个方式来爱你

还有
[[我会好好爱自己]]

[..........]

不是已经说好要潇洒一点的吗?
怎么现在一直在想他?
还发了一封简讯给他~
结果他没回吧~?!
真是苦了自己闷闷等待...


说好要潇洒就不能再这样了啊...
这样只会让自己越陷越深而已...


说好放开就该放了...
不能再执着了...
要潇洒一点的解脱才是对的啊...


不要再把自己关在过去了!!
梦醒了就该散了...
过去就只能收进回忆里了...
这样才能保留美丽且快乐的记忆...



而不是难过或不开心的...
统统把它记起来...
不是的...
我要解脱...
要开开心心的...
即使失去他...
是很难过...
但不是绝望...
而是要感谢他曾经在你生命里面出现过...
然后把所有事情放到回忆里去...
回想起来的时候是嘴角上扬的...
不是撇嘴的...



如果不够潇洒...
还可以再给自己一个机会...
如果连这个机会也没了...
那就干脆一点说拜拜...
保留那原本的美好...
放在心中...


仅属怀念~

[---------]

如果....




哪天.....




我发给你的简讯比以前少多了......




内容也比以前不一样了.....




不要惊讶.....




只是我太累了..........




想休息了~~~~




当我们见面时.....




我还是会对你微微笑......




就像我们刚认识那样..........




我不会给你超乎朋友以外的感觉........




与其说累了.....




倒不如说我不想再执着....




等待这没有结果的爱.....




我宁愿潇洒一点....




我觉得..以你的性格...




也许....




我们会变成陌生人也不一定....




但我依然会把你当成我的朋友.......




而且.....




我会一直把你放在我心中.....




我.....




也许......




在遇到下一个之前....




会封闭.....




不过不是封锁.......




如果.....




你让我感觉到你的在乎或关心或等等.....




我.....




会再次为你打开.....




但.....




不要让我等太久.....




我是个没耐性的小孩.......




会跑掉不等了.....




到别的地方.....




meet my Mr.Right.......